I know this is late, but I don’t think it matters all that much.
My Girl,
1 year ago today (March 7, 2014) we woke up to a completely different reality from the one we had gone to bed with. Three beautiful, intelligent and oh so talented young adults were gone, just like that. Completely unexpectedly, suddenly and tragically. They had so much life left to live, what happened will never make sense to those of us who knew them and loved them. Jordan, Alysia & Katie you were so very loved and you are so very missed. Each of you affected greatly the lives of everyone you met, and you didn’t even know it.
Alysia there are honestly no words for how much you are missed, every single second of every single day. You were a precious gift. How much I treasured our close friendship and miss it (you were truly my person), your absolute natural beauty, you had no idea just how beautiful you were. Your ability to mom me, while I was momming you, you were the only person who ALWAYS took care of me. How brave and strong you were through your many struggles with your health. All of the concerts we went to together because we loved the same music. The many movies we watch together (LOTR marathons). The TV shows (Grey’s). Your sense of humour (I miss giggling with you over ridiculous things), your kindness, your absolute silliness, your genuine love for the people you cared about, the way you lived your life on your terms, even though it was difficult sometimes, your distaste for the rules (driving long before you had your license), how much you adored all the animals in your life (and always wanted more), and even more how much you adored and wanted to protect your little brother, and how proud you were of him. You were an incredible big sister and daughter. We are so fortunate to have so many amazing and wonderful memories of you and to have done the things we did together in the short time we had. I’ll never forget our many road trips. Or Paris. Or New York City. Or Banff. Or Disney. My 20 year old daughter standing in line with all the little girls so she could meet the Disney princesses and have her picture taken with them or marching into Tiffany’s in NYC like you owned the place to buy yourself something, just because you could, are both favourites. I was so proud of your ability to be a kid while still being such an old soul. And you were an old soul. Wise beyond your years. Those beautiful eyes of yours held the secrets of the universe somehow. You were our shining light, through everything, and always knew how to make us smile. I know you are still with us, I see your little messages, and maybe that’s why we are still standing through our devastation and sorrow, so thank you for keeping an ever watchful eye on us. You are so missed. You are so loved. You are so very, very precious. A piece of my heart will be forever missing. We will never forget you. 21 years with you just wasn’t enough.
Love always,
Momma
A new normal 